Brain Aneurysm

She is dead now... http://stu.westga.edu/~wmaples/rutledge She was a good internet friend.. She and I were close.. She was devistated by her aneurysm and convinced herself that she was "handicapped" and.. She was VERY INTELLIGENT!!! I learned an awful lot because of meeting her.. She had a bleed that she had been recovering from for a number of years and then had a stroke.. I liked Patience..
When I hadta do the system restore on my computer it reset my favorites list and I found this webpage of hers bookmarked.. Just read her story again.. R.I.P. Patience.. :) *MWAH*

Its been down for a week now ever since I hadta do that system restore on it.. I found all of my videos so I can watch Charmed.. Still hungry... I've got both dentures.. I havent tried eating with them yet... My gums are still sore.. That "Canker sore" or whatever it was peeled off today... I didnt think Canker sores did that... I've had both my top and bottom dentures for a couple days now... These are still not my permanent ones.. I havent put them in... Why should I?? I dont have any reason to smile... Unless I'm thinkin' about LadySorrow!!! *Drools* :) But she's too far away to see my smile anyways so she wont mind... Dont really know what to write.. Just wanted to do so... Came out here and used Joshuas laptop... This is cool.. This computer has good internet connection Joshua is good with computers.. He's going to school for "Computer Froensics" I think he would be really good at that... Wonder where he is gunna find the time to do that... He's often too busy to fix mine for me...
Sorry Friends Page... I've been pretty grumpy lately... Wish I had some good news to share...
Well We can always discuss how beautiful LadySorrow looks today.. *drools* :)

Went at it with a new game plan and it went fine.. Finished it.. I got LOTSA books left over.. *shrug*

Got confused with the map cuz there were a lot more little cul-de-sacs in there than was listed on the map.. Was havin' troubles rememberin' which street I did and how far around this horseshoe thing and.. I took a hi-liter to mark them off as I did them but it was still just a mess... I got frustrated and decided to try it again tomorrow...

The dental assistant last week who looked at my dentures and forced my denture on over the swelling and told me that the bump was a "bone" She explained to me that she theorized it was a part of a root broken off of my tooth during the extraction and she thought it was working its way out.. That wasnt the case.. She took x-rays and found nothing in there and said its just swelling and it will continue to heal over time.. She said it can take up to a year before I am completely healed... Gave me a new prescription for Peridex.. And that white stuff I was thinking was infection is a canker sore... I showed it to her and said "IT HURTS" She said.. "Wow.. That is a big canker sore..." Its an inch long running down the inside of my gum by my tongue...
But didya know how beautiful LadySorrow looks when I am absolutely miserable?? *Drools* She's SO PRETTY!!! :)

I just read about my favorite person in the whole whirled... Today was her birthday and she had the "Worst birthday ever"... I didn't get any details cuz she didnt go into it but... :( I FEEL SO BAD FOR HER... I'm sitting here pouting.. :(
How about a cyber hug??? (((((((((((LADYSORROW))))))))))))))))))) Does that help??? If you were closer I'd give you a real one... And I'd tell ya a joke and TRY to make ya smile... AAWWWWW!!!!
Ya know I still adore you and you look absolutely beautiful today regardless of how you feel..

His buddies Rendon and Bob let him down... They went out partyin' or something.. I dont know... Joshua was tellin' me.. "Its not Rendons fault.. He was over at Dre's house cuttin' a song and Dre dont like me so he was hangin' Rendon up on purpose.. I told Joshua... "NO!!! Rendon failed at getting to work.. I dont care WHAT HIS EXCUSE IS!!! HE MISSED WORK!!! AND SO DID BOB!!! BOTH OF YER BUDDYS LET YOU DOWN!!! YOU TAKE IT OUT OF THEIR PAY!!! YOU HADTA HIRE ME TO FINISH THE JOB THEY PROMISED TO HELP YOU WITH... YOU DONT GIVE THEM A CENT!!! He refused and he says he's gunna give them 5 bucks each... That is OK I suppose.. I made 20 bucks today and Joshua gets 80.. If he wants to give Bob and Rendon 5 bucks each it can come out of his pocket but I told him he shouldnt give them anything.. They bailed on a job... It wasnt an hourly contract he had with them.. It was a "Do this job we get paid.." THEY DIDNT DO THE JOB!!! SCREW THEM!!! Next time they should think before they commit to partyin' all night... Next time Dre is passin' the Blunt to Bob, Bob should say.. "No foo' I gatta go so I can get up and help Josh in the morning cuz we gotta job to do.." I'll pass on this blundt and call Sunny for a ride home..."
Bob loses his paycheck.. BAD CHOICE BOB!!! Yes it was only 25 bucks.. But now ya only get 5!!! HELLO BIG RED TRUCK!!! Hopefully that was a 20 dollar blunt you smoked with Dre.. Cuz thas how much it cost you...

It says I'm only allowed to listen to Pandora for so many hours a month and then I hafta buy a membership to listen more.. BUMMER!!! O well... I got all my favorite songs I've heard on it on my Mediaplayer playlist.. As well as all of my episodes of Charmed..

Sure would like to see what "outfit" She will be wearing on her birthday... *Pick me PICK ME* YEAH WEAR ME ON YER BIRTHDAY!!! ME ME ME!!! *Drools*
I love the way you make me feel Deirdre.. :)

Make 500 copies of it

And deliver some flyers of my own...

YAY!!! I had DINNER!!! She baked fish out on the grill... Salmon AND Talipia and Macaroni and cheese!!! YAY!!! I'm FULL!!! :)

Told them to look thru it and pick out a recipe and I would come over and cook it for them... They picked out Tacos De Mariscos.. MY FISH TACOS RECIPE... I already made that for them a few months back.. They said they liked them and it IS in my cook book so... *shrug* I dont need the recipe for that... I can cook those out of memory cuz it IS MY RECIPE!!! :) Here friends page click on it for yourself and print it off... Good Stuff!!!http://community.livejournal.com/cooking/7698175.html

WHen I woke up from the coma the hospital was trying to feed me that nasty hospital food... Only thing I could stick in my mouth and swallow and enjoy was chocolate.. I woke up and ate some chocolate and rolled over and went back to sleep... I havent been able to eat chocolate in a couple years now cuz of my teeth... But now... I DONT GOT NO TEETH!!! YAY CHOCOLATE!!! Even that soft caramel flayvored chocolate dont hurt to eat anymore!!!! MMMMMMM :)

Went and got a pallet of paints today and started to detail him a little... Still needs LOTS OF WORK... The kids came outside to smoke while I was out there painting and they asked me what I was doing.. I told them "Painting the Gargoyle" They asked me "Whats a Gargoyle??" I told them.. "Its a creature that is stone during the day and at night they come to life.. They protect you and your property..." They said... "Yeah I remember something about that.. That was a cartoon.." I told them.. "Yup... This is a Gargoyle..." They like it.. I like him too... But now I need more... would like to have at least 3 Gargoyles here on my property.. Doobie here sits at the end of the back sidewalk by the garden... I want another one to put on the other side of the back yard by the "pet cemetary" And I want another one to put up on the front porch...

There is a girl I like... I belong to a community called "Kittypix" and I seen a post by someone.. I seen her userpic and she had THESE EYES!!! O GAWD I soaked my pants just seein' those eyes!!! I HADTA ADD HER cuz I am yer typical male internet stalker.. I am constantly "Trollin" for women to talk to... (Cuz I am alone and dont like to be that way...)
When I added her to my friends page.. LJ automatically notified her and let her know I added her to my friends page... She contacted me and asked me why.. I told her... "WOW... I Cant remember..." (Lame excuse I know) But it was TRUE cuz I have these memory issues... She told me "No worries, Nice to meet you.. :)" and I was like... WOW!!! She's NICE!!!! :) And she posted some pictures of herself in her journal once... I was like... WOW!!! SHE IS REALLY PRETTY!!! OMG!!! I LOVE HER!!! *DROOLS* WHEN CAN I MEET THIS WOMAN??? We contact each other regularly thru comments in our journals and she is REALLY NICE TO ME!!! She once sent me a link to a song that she recorded with some friends of her and SHE CAN SING TOO!!! O GAWD I NEED A GOOD FEMALE SINGING PARTNER!!! and O GAWD SHE'S PRETTY!!! here see for yourself... SHE'S PRETTY!!! And I have all of her pictures I've ever seen saved to display on my screensaver and I see her pop up regularly... Always makes me drool... Thas why I always say how beautiful I think she is cuz she is the closest thing to a girlfriend I have and that is just how I treat my girl... I tell my girl she's beautiful EVERY DAY!!! Kerry once told me.. "Ya know Sunny, I'd bet you tell me I look beautiful 100 times a day..." I told her.. "Well yer my girl... I'm supposed to do that right???" :) *MWAH LadySorrow!!!* You look absolutely beautiful today and I LOVE YOU!!!! Well ok thas a little extreme... I cant be IN LOVE with her.. So let me re-phrase that..
LadySorrow.. I LOVE THE WAY I FEEL WHEN I THINK OF YOU!!! :) THAT IS A VALID STATEMENT..

I even called my friend Vic and told him about it... He went to the orientation and hasa job tomorrow to do with his friend Adam... All of the boys have a job tomorrow.. I never made it to the orientation cuz I was busy getting my bottom dentures fitted...
THAT SUCKED!!! My top dentures were fitting ok.. But there is this one place right in the front of my top gum that has a little "bump" I didnt know what it was and I was just careful about putting the dentures in cuz I knew it was there.. Well when the dental assistant put my top denture in for me today she didnt know that was there and she.. She noticed that the dentures werent slipping right in so she pressed HARD AND *Shakes head* O GAWD THAT HURT!!! She scraped my new denture against that bump on my gum and.... I almost hit her... Not out of anger just out of "O GAWD THAT HURTS GET IT AWAY RIGHT NOW!!!" She looked at me and said.. "Did that hurt???" *shakes head* So I took it off and pointed at that bump and said.. "What is that???" She said.. "I dont know.. It kinda looks like a piece of bone or something???" WHAT??? WHY DIDNT SHE GO INTO THE DENTIST AND SAY "HEY DOC LOOK AT THIS.." She just fitted this bottom denture for me and that was it.. And I DONT LIKE THESE THINGS!!! O GAWD THIS IS GUNNA BE IMPOSSIBLE TO DO!!! THERE IS NO WAY I WILL BE ABLE TO KEEP THESE THINGS IN MY MOUTH!!! I CANT DO IT!!! I CANT DO IT!!! I know that I HAFTA do it... But I wont.. I'll starve first... I just dont care anymore.. GAWD I CANT EVEN EAT!!! WHATS THE SENSE??? There is no way I can try to chew with these temporary dentures with that "BONE" sticking out of my gum.. WHAT THE FUCK??? I dont know how anyone can expect me to chew anyways with this "Foreign devise" in my mouth...???? *shakes head* Gawd.. :( Slimeball sure enjoyed his settlement he got when he destroyed my carreer and my habit of getting up and brushing my teeth as a routine I did before work in the morning.. HE SOLD MY TEETH!!! :( I hope you caught Syphillis from the prostitute you hired when you got my settlement.. O yeah.. You are disgusting.. Prostitutes wont touch you without a condom... YOU ARE A PIECE OF SHIT SLIMEBALL!!! YOU TRADED MY CARREER AND MY HOUSE AND MY WIFE AND MY KID AND MY TEETH!!! EVEN MY FUCKING TEETH ARE GONE!!! ALL FOR A 30 THOUSAND DOLLAR SETTLEMENT!!!

She told me that my hair is TOO FINE... If she were to put dreads in it they would be too heavy and it would cause my hair to break off.. :/ I told her... Well than it will be short and I can just cut it off than.. She still refused... So... *shrug* She told me she could give me a nice short hair cut that I might like.... I refused.. I dont want my hair short... It was short 4 years ago and I hated it... I've NEVER liked my hair short... She told me she would e-mail me telephone numbers to someone who WOULD dread my hair... If I keep the dreads nice and thin I dont know how it would be so heavy it would break it all off??? But I guess thas why I was a roofer for 17 years... Cuz I just dont understand things that dont correct themselves by banging on them with a hammer.. If its not working hit it HARDER!!! Thas how I always got thru life... *shakes head* At least I got all the kids a job and they are all hard at work delivering the phone books.. :) Now where can I find a .44??? I NEED TO BLOW MY GOOD FOR NOTHING BRAINS OUT OF MY HEAD!!! My brain isn't even capable of growing good hair?? How is it gunna grow me.. It put all of its lifetime energy into developing my penis... THAT SHOWS!!! My penis does hang down between my knees.. But nobody wants to see my penis after they look at my head... :(
.44 thas my only option left... Blow my good for nothing brains out of the top of my head.. :(
Miss Kerry.. :( She made me feel good about myself... She fell in love with my heart.. NOT MY HEAD!!! Slimeball put her in jail cuz she was costing him too much of MY MONEY!!!!
Wish I had some of my money and I would just pay Pamela to braid my hair again like she did last time.. I LIKED THAT!!! We're not dating anymore so I dont expect her to do it for free this time and I dont have money to pay her.. :( Yeah... .44 is my only option left..

The kids will make it... (I hope) I have an appointment to talk to the lady who is gunna dread my hair so I cant make the 1 p.m. phone book orientation.. I can go to the orientation tomorrow.. The kids can go to it today and they can work tomorrow.. I dont know.. But I need more sleep right now...

Joshua came down and woke me up at 9... I ran us all down there anyways.. They have another orientation today at 1 p.m. and we're gunna try to make that one... I have a dentist appointment today at 11:30 so I couldnt make the 11 a.m. orientation..

Told me she just met Scary Kerry... Told me she's supposed to be meeting up with her again tonite... They are playin' "Chase some crack.." Its too bad I quit the stuff... I could be playin' it with both of them... But... I decided to sit here tonite and be true to my LadySorrow.. :) Cuz she looks absolutely beautiful tonite!!! *drools*